32 weeks

I am 32 weeks pregnant. I am due July 14th. But what is a due date anyway? You always hear that you are pregnant for 9 months. Well anyone who knows anything about being pregnant knows that you are actually pregnant for 10 months and that you never actually have the baby on your due date. By the time your period is overdue you are already 5 weeks into your pregnancy. I have been throwing up since I was 5 weeks pregnant. You do the math. I have been throwing up for 27 weeks, or approximately 6.75 months. And I have done this now three times. This because some women, I must be one of them, have the ability after about three years to forget how awful throwing up while pregnant is, and then they desire to have another one. I desired to have six kids. My first was handed to me in court after I married his father (my husband today who continues to be the love of my life), and I became an adoptive stepmother--easiest pregnancy and delivery. My second, my firstborn, made me forget every moment of pregnancy sickness the moment she could smile. My third came along three years later, not making me as much sick as I was a worried nervous wreck about his health (he's fine by the way). So after 5 years I desired a 4th. And now at 32 weeks, I desire to meet this sweet baby who continues to use my lungs as a punching bag and then I desire to have no more. I have written down in detail why I desire to never be pregnant again and sealed it in an envelope which I have given to my husband, only to be presented to me in the heat of the moment when I say...wouldn't it be great to have a baby in the home again? at which time he will clobber me over the head with it and leave me dejected in bed while he goes and takes a cold shower.